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moved.

2008-08-25T22:23:00.000+08:00

http://chiasuett.wordpress.com/

see ya guys there.

2008-08-25T08:30:00.001+08:00

my father nearly burnt the house down last night

i wonder if he knows.

now it smells loads around the house!

dy ah dy ahyoooooo..

2008-08-25T08:26:00.002+08:00

yet another long day.

yet another restless day.

these days it seems i cant rest my mind,
its all so cloudy
and i cant clear my mind

so many things to think about
so many i have not come to decide upon

i wonder when that day is,

i wonder if there even will be the day.

2008-08-23T12:07:00.002+08:00

i tot i will be just fine
i tot i will pull through this just so simply.

i tot myself wrong.

i cant help but think.
every little thing i do reminds me.

my phone.
my bag.
the shops.
the songs.
the bus trip.
even my new bangs.

every little thing.

i hate myself for that.
i have to be strong.
i have to work towards what i want.

i will be strong.

2008-08-20T23:30:00.001+08:00

life is just a rollercoster ride

and mine's the downway to the dumps.

2008-08-07T10:37:00.001+08:00

i completed sm.

i think i am dead.

2008-08-01T19:26:00.003+08:00

this is for yu yeeling! dun say i nv upload! lol! yes marm!

sm is killing me.
i wonder now if i have chosen the right company..
hmms.

yet, i dunno what other company to choose..
yucks.

anyway, here are some pictures that SOMEpeeeps say i nv upload.
cos this is the rare few times i am actually blogging with my labbie.

the reasons why i look back to tp with fond memories

2008-06-29T08:22:00.000+08:00

she nv reply to my appeal.

damm.

2008-06-26T23:06:00.001+08:00

this is all too frustrating.

can anyone just understand?

this songs reminds me of things i should not think of.

2008-06-15T22:28:00.001+08:00

goodbye my friend.

goodbye.

2008-06-12T10:52:00.002+08:00

it is saddening
and shocking
to hear that one of our coursemate from htm
has passed on.
yest night was supposedly a celebratory night
but when we heard the news
all of us were shocked.
it was heart wrenching
to know that there are increases in cases where
NS is no longer just a training.
it means pushing yourself against your limit
and sometimes it goes way out of hand.

I just kept thinking about it the entire night after i returned.
Though he was just a distant figure who i had barely spoken to
I could still picture him
after htm people are very self aware of each other.
even though we might not know each other,
we each share a secret bond
and people around will know if we are from htm.

hearing this had made us realised one thing,
life is really too short.
you never know what is going to happen next.
i have so many things i wanna do
so many things i have yet to accomplished
so many things i have not experienced.

i am feeling so choked now.
cant speak.

2008-06-10T08:22:00.000+08:00

tired.

drained.

2008-05-31T12:47:00.002+08:00

somehow.

yur attitude makes me sick

maybe somehow somewhere, yu din realise that was who i really am
or maybe yu just said that to spite me
maybe somehow somewhere, yu need to consider whatever yu have said
or maybe yu just said to reassure yurself
maybe somehow somewhere, yu really am sick of me, like how i am getting more sick of yu
or maybe yu really dunno
maybe somehow somewhere, we still dun understand each other well enough

or maybe it just wasnt meant to be.

2008-05-18T15:13:00.000+08:00

i am back...

2008-05-10T09:48:00.002+08:00

had a great day yester with the loves and mans.
yeah mans.
nostalgic chenatown.
k-ing and shopping that was not enough.
fun
and i wanna do it all over again.
the pictures.
and joseph.
ha!
i can blackmail you.

have alr done abt 90% of my packup.
its still so heavy.
i tried whatever i could to clear things out,
but still my bag is so heavy.
wooots.
i will be leaving homes in about 4 hours
the flights in about 11 hrs.
i guess i will miss home man.
i suddenly thought of foregoing the trip
but thats a little too late for that huh.

so i should be excited excited excited!
ha!
so yu guys just await for arrival on the 18!

loves, i will miss you guys!

2008-05-07T23:53:00.000+08:00

exams are officially over!
wooohoooO!
i din even bother to look through the paper after i am done.

i just wanna be done with the whole thing.

and boy did it felt good.

after exams were also great.
catching up with the loves for fun.
too bad for the time constraint.
anyway, we are going to do it all over again on friday..
i am so looking forward to that!

woohooO!
after getting my incentive from my mystery job,
i decided to splurge it on the bag from char and key
should have just gotten it when i was at the orchard outlet
imagine the frustration when i got to bugis all happy
and i only saw the camel version of it.
headed all the way to ps,
only to realise they are down to one last piece - the display piece.
same goes for orchard.
too tired to scour the island for it,
i decided to get that very last piece with an additional 10% discount on top of it.
woohooo!
total burn in pocket today - $53.10 + $10 + $19.95 + $6 = $89.05
that was in just 5 hours
talk about relieving stress.
lol.
i got a tuxedo look-a-like top from flesh imp at ps for just $10.
yu guys should check out the outlet man
they are having moving out sales and if yu are willing to dig,
yu will be able to hit gold.
just like i did.
i saw these shorts that were the loves.
but toooo bad they were too small.
white with gold wordings. l o v e.

on the bad side,
the seller had to cancel the meetup again due to her having to work ot.
like i care.
man.
too many times alr.
she said she will make it down to amk tml.
i better get it on hand. or else,
i really am going to burst.
urgh!

my rheumatism is acting up again,
and the mozzie bites are killing me.

3 more days.

2008-05-07T08:18:00.003+08:00

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2008-05-07T07:59:00.003+08:00

today is the day.
lm.
i am so nervous.
my tummy's feeling weird
i am having cold shivers.
man.
i think i haven revised enough.

so the seller contacted me last night
said that the player parcel was sent back to her cause it was tempered with
boy was i glad.
thank god it wasnt lost or sent to the wrong person
so after much compromisation on MY part,
we'll meet tonight to retrieve my prize.
yeah!
i dunnoo what's with her,
but it seems she survives only in the west.
dun even come out to the central area.
was so pissed man.
but no choice
you shi yu qiu ren
so i got to meet her
or else, the player will only be in my hands after returning from kuching.

so now i am expecting my vivitar and my masks.
yeah!
seems like everything is getting better.
ihope.
just that ***** is back.
damm.

wish me ALL the luck for my paper lates 10-1.15pm.
bo bi bo bi!

and what could be better than meeting the girls later in school again.....

2008-05-06T21:48:00.003+08:00

exam period is crazy.

down to the last paper tml.
man.
we have come a long way.

this sem does not seem to be a very ideal semester for me. for us.
things dun go right.
and exams.
exams seems like the pits this year.
everything is just too tiresome and crazy.
i agree totally with sengster,
prolly the motivation and drive to study was all used up by hmt
i totally have no kick to study for lm
my mind keeps wandering.
and i get so frustrated.
for me, one it gets past 11pm i cant study
it gets worst after midnight,
i get so frustrated
i almost want to tear up the notes i has painstakingly wrote up the last couple of days.
seeee..
i am online like at least 3 times a day
checking email, spree pages and blogs.
whenever i read through the notes
trying to sbsorb whatever is on the papers,
i always seem to know.
it all seems so obvious.
but once that page is flipped
i cant recall a single shit.
hais.
sometimes
studying really sucks.

come tml
i will be free of these frustrations
but that does not mean i will rest
cos my 3 packages are not here yet!!!
dammit!

preparations for trip are underway,
i just pray for my apy to be in on friday.
with all the hiccups recently,
i hope there will not be any.
shall make my way to the temple
to bai bai tml.
qu zhou mei yun....

my heart's beating damm fast again,
makes me short of breath.

2008-05-06T15:01:00.001+08:00

darn!

i haven receive my packages.
i am so going to be driven to be a nervous wreck
with these 3 freaking packages.

my masks,
my vivitar,
and that mp4 player!

whats wrong with the effiency of the postal service!

i feel so infuriated.

2008-05-05T22:54:00.003+08:00

this is frustrating.
i am frustrated, pissed, pekchek, furious, fired
A N G R Y

urgh.
i dun understand why am i feeling so fired up anyway.
i am just angry.
and i pissed the hell out of him.
anyway, cant he just figure it out himself.
yea its my fault.
but there isnt a need for yu to slam the phone on me.
somethings dun need to be spelled out clearly for yu.
sense them yurself
should i even bother apologising.
URGH!

ALL the freakiong packages and parcels are not here yet!
dammit!
where the freaking hell are yu!

i have just only completed writing out the damm points (part1) of my lm
and woohooo!
my hand hurts like hell,
and there is this callus-blister think at the lower joint of my right thumb.
freak!
it hurts ok.
flipping the textbook seems to get me more agitated.
urgh!

can this mysterious anger just go the hell away.
urgh.
it has spoilt my entire day.
luckily i was confined at home the entire day
except for the short swim.
i am going to have another attempt at tanning again tml.

URGH! the anger is still there.
somewhere just under the chest in the middle.
it is so engulfing
that i almost feel breathlesss!

AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-05-05T14:52:00.002+08:00

am back from the swim.

the sun closed on me in just a meer hour.
ha. so i swam.
boy, the feeling of the rush against the water felt good.

am feeling moody today.
kept rebutting. think the old boy isnt feeling very happy after all i told him off.
ha. anywa, i think he deserved it. and he should just take it with a pinch of salt, yea old boy?

and the dammed postman isnt here yet still.
time check 2.55pm.

either the mail is taking much longer.
or the buyer din mail out as they say.
my 19 black masks isnt in my mailbox yet still.
urgh!

why is everything taking so long
when the time passes so fast.
i haven got enough time left alr.

back to lm.
before i come back to screech more.

ciao.

2008-05-05T09:57:00.002+08:00

i woke up,
anticipating the footsteps of the friendly postman.
lol.

and he isnt here yet!
time check 10am.
i wanna go tan alr.
why isnt he here yet.

i was going thru chap 11 yest.
and i swore i was brain dead.
i have no idea and no control over what i was writing man.
and when i plonked onto bed to play my nightly sudoku on my phone,
i actually fell asleep.
till i think ah boy called.
hoo. i hope i din blabber nonsense.
lol.

2 more days.
count down.

i have decided.
i shall not wait for the postman alr.
i shall get my well-deserved 4 hour sunloving by the pool
followed by a hot fudge sundae from macs
and back to my sack to complete my final 3 chaps.
woohoo!
bless me!

i am having a breakout!
yikes!

2008-05-04T20:19:00.001+08:00

hot news!

vivitar on the way!!!
wooohoooo! camera loves!

2008-05-04T19:56:00.002+08:00

one more last lap to go
till the finishing line.

i still have got 5 chaps of lm to complete before i try to memorise
everything all over again.

anyways, this week is a light one.
with revisions for the first half
and then it will be one day of work, one girlie day, and off to kuching!
Weee!
surprisingly,
my parents haven said anything since.
and my mother even kindly notified me that they will be at my aunt's on the 18 for bbq
the day i return
this sounds good!
ha.

mp4 player supposedly coming tml.
vivitar i still haven heard about it.
am anxious. hopefully i can get it in time for kuching.
then i can snap and work on my special project.
heees. *winks*

anyway, i have decided.
i will head down to char and key to buy THAT bag after my paper on wed.
to reward myself. heee.
cant wait cant wait!

2008-05-03T00:19:00.002+08:00

i saw this bag at charles and keith just now..
and i fell so deeply in love with it.
i so want to get it man
cant decide btw camel and black.

but the pricetag screams a whooping 59.90.
hows that for a bag?

gonna check out the anchorpt c&k after lm paper..
then decide on whether i should get the bag.
haven been able to find bags that i really fall deep in love with.
wait for me!

anyway, we went on a hotdate today
to cathc a movie.
well, i was flipping thru the papers this morn
and the only reasonable show to catch with him was doomsday.
can yu imagine us catching bimbotic shows?
lol.
anyway, the show had a lame storyline.
and it is damm gruesome.
the way they kill and all.
yucks.
i was feeling somewhat sick halfway thru.

it was happy and hot date as i said.
and i wanna do it again!
woo.

i am still thinking about the char & key bag *smirks to seng*.
hopefully i can finish lm tml?
so i can tan on monday. hees.
i love it when i look all bronze and raw after the sunloving.

w i d e g r i n.

the buyer is taking forever to send me the mp4. abit pissed. she refuses to reply my emails.shall bombard her with sms tml.

2008-05-02T00:41:00.002+08:00

i've got 2 confessions to make.

Confession 1 -
i have not gotten past chapter 2 for lm YET.
dammshit.
i must at least complete till chap 4 tonight
and another 1 by noon tml.

cos.
i just realised that i am done for work.
and i promised ah boy that it will be a day well spent together.
so

Confession 2 -
i am going to skip work tml.

hopefully i have enough time to complete lm by monday.

Confession 3 -
I was unable to resist the sun today.
and i went for some sun-loving by the pool today.
*oops. dada, sengs dun stare at me.
nonono.. dada yu dun tsk.
i got one quarter of a nice golden tan.
cos i was damm fair before the tender loving.
at least ah boy's friend commented that the tan looked great so far.
lol
and this malay aunty that i met in the lift before going over to the pool
she thought that i was only 16. her jaw dropped when she heard my age.
funneh.

anyways,
i have to get back to lm.
9th may is coming,

so is the 10th. woohooo!

2008-04-30T22:07:00.001+08:00

hais.

i am sad.
i think both my orders from elf and pgmall wun come in time for my trip.
hais.
sadded.

2008-04-30T00:41:00.002+08:00

these few nights are crazy.

its like so hot.
kudos to those who have air-conditioning in their hide.
me.
i just rely on my trusty ceiling fan.

i can resume tanning real soon.

and i need to get back in shape again.
all the snacks have done me no good.

2008-04-30T00:39:00.001+08:00

bless me.

bless me.

2008-04-28T22:33:00.001+08:00

i am so beneath the water for hmt.

kill me pls.

2008-04-28T10:12:00.002+08:00

i am almost tempted to get this phone.

though it is brandless.

pics credit to angelxts

2008-04-28T10:05:00.002+08:00

i havee been lazy.

read hmt thru on sat. tts all.
yest, i slept the night away cos i was too tired. supposed to wake up at 9.30, inthe end, i only wake at 12mn.
hmt tml! and i cant rmb a single shit.

hais. the sun looks good today,
almost tempted to go out for some sun-loving.

2008-04-25T23:21:00.002+08:00

oh yar

ah boy pulled me to try to get a new cam..
and
after all the nightmares he had,
we finally got it.

samsung L-100
the exact same one we got for sengster.
but that was the only one within reasonable budget
and the better looking amongst all the rest

so.
ah boy bought it.

i just love the balck and white functionality.
i love the outcome of the pictures.
just beautiful.

now i am just awaiting the arrival of my vivitar
which spree wil lend in exactly 35 mins.
oh more picture taking.
and refining my photography skills
after all the darn exams.
which i think once it starts from tml,
will end quite fast.

i have been getting so many things recently,
jacket(S), masks, digicam(1/2mine), mp4-itouch-lookalike(still pending), ONunderwear. wooooo! happys.
i haven heard of any news from my pgmall spree. i hope it arrives soon
cause i am sick of the bags i carry.
and my elf stuff! woo! dada! i owe yu money!

hais. bb tml. sadded.

2008-04-25T23:15:00.001+08:00

bb's tml..

and i am only halfway thru reading and trying to memorise.
hais.

i really am praying hard that i can make it thru.
bless me.

2008-04-24T11:05:00.000+08:00

i am so going to buy a vivitar!

woohooo!

2008-04-24T10:41:00.001+08:00

hmt hmt hmt

bb this sat.

and i dun think i can rmb anything abt what i've written down last week. shoot.

2008-04-20T22:01:00.002+08:00

hmt has slayed me. totally.

i really feel like giving up.
i have been hovering at lect 6 & 7 for the past 2 days..
and i cant still freaking rmb a single shit.

i will not have enough time to write out.
reading the book does me no justice.
i really just feel like tearing the book up and forgetting about it.
yet i know i cant.

having spending so much of my parents savings.
the family will be depending on me after i grad.
after seeing SIA's call for more crew members,
i really wonder what the hell am i doing in sim.
If i could just get thru the rounds,
I will be starting on a dream career
and the money will roll in
with travelling across th world
h e a v e n

hais.
mayo and follet. bring me to your graves.

i am so stressed. i keep having terrible nightmares these days.
that is how bad everything is.

2008-04-19T11:35:00.001+08:00

weather check.

perfectly alright for tanning. Sun's gentle with wind blowing.
Fabulous for a golden tan.

And what happened last sat..

urgh. and today i have to stay in.
i wonder how more long i can take this.

2008-04-19T10:43:00.002+08:00

i dun think i got enought time for hmt.

dum!

i just completed bb last night. and it took so much effort to keep myself going. looking at the endless pages bores me.

my momentum is gone.

after writing so bloody much, i cant freaking remember. whats the use man. i think i have wasted my time.

now that there is hmt, i think it is going to be dooms month for me. just as what seng said, i got to read and try my best to understand and take out the points. that goes for 6 lectures. hais. pls bless me. I want so much for the ideal grade, but i am damm sure i am going to fall short.

i seriously cant wait for exams to be over. then i can be in kuching doing all the things he said he will bring me to do like tanning, shopping and maybe experiencing the nightlife there. woos. but now when i think of it - SIAN! i still have to go through shit before it comes. hais.

exams sucks.

2008-04-14T00:07:00.000+08:00

mug mug mugging.

the sky disappoints me.
everyone does.

hais.

2008-04-11T20:45:00.000+08:00

Russell Peters is the loves!

watch and laugh yur heart out!

BE A MAN!

2008-04-11T13:24:00.001+08:00

this year has been disappointing so far..
with results like these,
and conditions of such

i really really have to buck up!

i am feeling so blue now.

2008-04-10T22:41:00.000+08:00

i am so sadd.

i hope i get well soon.

pls.. make it soon.

hais.

2008-04-09T00:07:00.001+08:00

urgh!

stupid irritation!!

urgh!

2008-04-02T20:38:00.001+08:00

i just finish watching like the dance from step up 2

and i am still as crazy over it.

watch it again if yu wanna know what i mean!

2008-04-02T18:53:00.002+08:00

a day for me to rest.

went with mr man to the docs today.
and they dun have a verdict for his condition
it maybe this it maybe that
so for now, it is just viral infection.
stupids.
sad that it spoilt my week.
cos this week, i took so many off days
and now it is all down the drains
hais.

well, was livej-ing looking for pictures
and i got these pictures...
from http://divinepictures.blogspot.com/

cute static-y hair!

loves!

true beauty

lastly, my fave!

2008-03-31T23:33:00.002+08:00

the man has developed rash this morning.
and had to bo for a blood extraction according to the good-for-nothing doc
to test for dengue.
which test results will only be ready in 2 days
and guess what
i think
it has developed into chicken pox alr.

how stupid can a doc get!
cant even differentiate what is dengue, rash and chicken pox!
my god!
feel like lodging a complain
wondered if it is just a stupid trick to get people to pay more for less.
something like upselling in mkting.
ass of the doctor

anyway went to his place to check him out after lec.
and it is terrible.
every inch of his body is being covered in the mini bumps
it is damm gross in a way.
yucks
pls bless that i do not get it again.
so i told him to see the doc from his place tml
and get all the necessary medication
waiting for that damm doc is just a stupid waste of time

so if my zhen duan is correct,
the poor boy will not be able to consume licken, seafood, and anythig black
he is only allowed fish and maybe pork
and vegatables
i dun even know if he can bathe
cos i rmb my mum din allow me to bathe when i got the pox
was only allowed a wash up
yucks
not as if the weather nowadays is not bad enough

so i will try my best to be a nice girlfren
and do all i can to bring him thru this.
hais
just bo bi i dun get it man!
damm scared
cant afford to cos my revision lecs are these weeks and exams sooon.

hais.
get well soon mr man.

stepup2

2008-03-27T03:55:00.005+08:00

these are loves.

2008-03-27T03:44:00.003+08:00

i am still awake..
its 3.45am
speeding my bb to be done.
and there is still lm. being online everynight is so unlike me
cos most of the time, i am too lazy to switch on the com.

but i have no other choice. with 2 more assignments due. bb hmt.

so its prolly more or less confirmed.
i think i am going to kuching this hols. just as a breather
where got so cheap find.
he said he will pay the air tix for me.
maybe i pay half. feel bad.
and i dun have to worry abt transport, lodging there cos
he will be my driver, tourguide, bellboy, room service, housemaid, translator and bodyguard.
i just have to pay for my own shopping.
good right! maybe i will ask him to drive me to the bazzar he went to the other time and dig for cheap goods. lol!
and that beach resort with its neverending coastlines
wow! i cant wait to tan on that sand! maybe skinny-dipping? lol

i got to retire to bed now cos if my dad sees me at the com at this unearthly time,

i am so going to hear him!

so alnightys, i will see yu in 6 hours.

r-oves.*

i bought jco donuts again, oure love. snowwhite and alcapone is just my faves. loves loves LOVES. but too bad they were infested with ants at his place. dunnoo why they can co-live with such things. my god. they were like in swarms over my donuts. so we were busy swatting them before i boarded the cab. hopefully when we take a bite out of the donuts, i dun suffer another swarm of ants in my mouth. EW!

2008-03-25T23:57:00.001+08:00

i just peeled off my toenail.

revealing the semi-growing nail underneath.
and there seems to be a smell.
damm.
pls.. i dun have smelly legs.
it is just that the nail is still pre-mature.

now i have 3 toes that are exposed. and still counting.

2008-03-24T01:01:00.001+08:00

step up2 totally rocked my socks!

all thanks to the almightys for such a fantastic sat
and also to limson and his dudes.

yo, peaceout.

2008-03-18T23:57:00.002+08:00

boyfren can be the pits.

urgh! pisses the hell out of me
as if the weather aint hot enough recently.

so he has been thinking of going back home
and was considering the time period of my holidays.
yes, i admit i am a little reluctant..
cos that means meeting his family
and that means something big

so he just called
and i was online..
so i was trying let him know about the updated airasia fares from jb.
talkin talk talkin,
i just mentioned about how much it is a hassle to amek it thru with custom
with the whole Mas Selamat thing going on STILL
and he just says that i am giving him stupid excuses not to go
and that if i din wanna go
i could just let him know and he will go back during the end of april

we spent about 10 mins yaggadigly about this whole stupid thing
and in the end i just gave up
i really cant be bothered to get all fiery over the phone.
wadeva,
even better if i ...

screw him.

2008-03-14T00:58:00.002+08:00

i just have to tell everyone..

J.Co Donuts are the best man!

Try them and yu shall be rewarded!

man! they have like so many flavours.
and they are definitely a must try for chocolate-lovers cause they have got so many chocolate varieties. and the one with whitechoc and almond, alcapone i think.. man. it looks plain and simple but when yu bite into it. MY GOODNESS! a definite must get and a get-again donut. Better than DONUT FACTORY!

i lovesJ.Co.

2008-03-12T01:38:00.002+08:00

projects are all duing so soon,.
and we are still dangling there..

lol
and we always say we wanna get startedin it as soon as possible..
but.. each time it is forever the same!

anyways.
yu guys should catch step up 2 : the streets
it totally rocks!

i so wanna take up my hiphoplessons again.

2008-02-17T22:59:00.002+08:00

urgh!
HMT is killing me!

all that mugging the past few days,
with the freaking mgt peeps in my mind
fayol, webber,gantt...

ah! whoever came up with this topic!

2008-02-13T23:46:00.002+08:00

i dislike her totally..

well if yu know who i am talking abt.

yu all prolly will know what it is like to having to fake around smiles and loves yu totally have an opposite feeling for. it sucks.

anyway, today i decided to come up with some pattern.
so i msged my brance manager early in the morning.
she prolly had gone to the clinic
and was caught up
din reply my msg
so i tot yu prolly had got it as they had not called me

when i got to my staff email just,
guess what that freaking person put next to my name for today's attendance
mia
wow! that is quite a shock.

well, i guess i just have to msg the both of them the next time.
just my luck.

anyways, i have been having a very bad runnynose
and cramps the entire day
so my mc ws totally called for a reason.
cramps sucks!

2008-02-09T16:27:00.000+08:00

i ate bad corn

and i am having a tummy ache..

anyway, this is from me to yu on the third day of cny

Happyyss l-iew yearss!

lovesandkissesss

2008-02-02T00:08:00.000+08:00

is a bad day today.

had to drag myself out of bed to works.
after being absent from work for 4 days.
yu tell me

after work,
proceeded on to bugis to look for baobeii and ah poh.
freaking hell!
got screamed by some apparent he/she < i dunnoo
yu could freaking scold me
but yu dun freaking insult me yu weird piece of shit
apparently yesi do think i am pretty
at least better of than yu!
at least my breasts are full
while yours,
hmm... just keep working onit..
stuffings and all

well anyway, i cant really be bothered to tit back at her.
i was too tired anyways
and i was enjoying my rnb tunes
the last straw came when she freaking called me a slut.
i just turned and called the thing "crazy bastard"
i was so angry so so SO angry i was shaking all over
i swear i could have swung my fist over.

the only good thing that happened
was that i got my perfect white heels..
woooos.. loving it. loving it!

watch me on sunday!

2008-01-21T08:33:00.000+08:00

i have been so down on luck the past days.
and i am so irritated by it.
hais.
i lost $50 jutslike tt.
hais.

may the day be a better one.

2008-01-13T21:50:00.000+08:00

i am backks!

yeah!
daddy sent the cpu for recovery
and now its back!
yeah!
can yu believed i actually survived without the net!
goodness.
i think some damm website planted some bugbomb on my poor com!

well so the past weeks have been quite happening for me.
school's started.
and i meet the lovelies agaiN!
with our non stop crap in school! lol!
i love.
and my failed planned to be a millionaire.
the guards refused my entry
without my damm passport
stupid!
so i just waited outside.
genting's cool ok!
walking in the clouds the entire time.!
i love it!
though its super cold at night.
the entire time we were there,
we were just eating,
shopping,
crapping
eating.
did i just repeat eating?
the boys had about 5 meals per day...
what can i say!

give me some time to arrange the photos,
and i will post them here or at facebook soon.
anyways,
its been close to a week since the trip,
and there is nv a moment i stop dreaming about my next holiday.
holidays are cool!
cos yu'll feel like a princess.
at least, i went to genting and felt like he xian gu! lol. *inside joke*

last friday was a much long awaited zouk trip.
i was so tired,
i almost could not make it.
din want to disappoint them though.
made it there.
and i was freaking yawning the entire night away.. or rather we!
old alr lar!
and by 3.30,
i was feelin sick alr.
we were really partying like log stars.

bless those mei mei!

2008-01-04T19:14:00.000+08:00

com's down again!

bored.

netlesss. hais..

leaving for genting tml night.
see yu back on earth on wed.

hope i come back a millionaire!

2007-12-29T22:05:00.000+08:00

jolly good season

with all the sales.
lol!
i love! yeah!
mango. zara. riverisland. cottonon. pull&bear.
man!
i cant get enough of everything.

next week at the exact same time,
i will prolly be in the bus at smelly old golden mile
heading for genting!
i damm cant wait!
goodnesss!
have alr planned what clothes to wear.
so much so that i think i have too many outfits planned
for the mere 3 days.
lol.
yu can tell i am excited rights?
the last time i went on a holiday
was.........................................
prolly when i was in sec3.
5 freaking years ago!
woooo!
and it was to do some volunteer work somemore!
lol!
i just cant wait.

the new year is coming..
in 2 days time.
boy is it fast.
the last time
i was still stuck in the
freaked up place.
this year's going to be a sadd one for me.
cos the dear boy is working the night shift for both eve and newyear day.
hai.
screw the outlet chef.
making use of him all the time.
screw yu! yu hear me . SCREW YU!
abit disappointed.
thought we could go catch the fireworks.
hai.
i will be stuck at home,
while he sweat thru his boxers at work.
poor boy. poor boy. poor girl me too.

new year resolution:
.. .. .. it goes on and on.

2007-12-27T00:12:00.000+08:00

i cant help it.

it is just overwhelming.

just get it over with

won't yu?

2007-12-26T08:38:00.000+08:00

thoughts not meant to be.
flooding me.

hais.
not a sign i want.

2007-12-26T00:25:00.001+08:00

waiting for a sign.

a signal.

2007-12-22T23:37:00.000+08:00

i had been thinking too much again.

or is it?

2007-12-22T00:41:00.000+08:00

i am baking.

do not disturb.

2007-12-20T01:06:00.000+08:00

i just adore her.

what will i do without her!

and i love her new house too. lol! *winks*

2007-12-20T01:01:00.000+08:00

things go bad for a reason
and sometimes
somehow, they turn well again overnight,
but the badness will still be contained.
waiting to emerge another day.

so alls well.
all sweet and smooth.

xmas is coming.
and everyone's busy with gifts
and i haven gotten anyone anything.

he got me my much covetted chanel chance scent!
oh my!
i just did not know what to say.
that is what i have lusted for
for the past half year...
and now,
i have it.!
yeah!
so
if yu pass by me
take a hard deep breathe
and smell me!
and pls tell me i smell great!

yeah!

i cant wait for sat to meet the girls!
it has been so long since full force.

plannig to go genting on the 6th of jan!
83 for 2 nights.
just a trip away before the new sem starts,
when it will be down to hard work..

merry xmas to all
if i dun return... in time.

2007-12-11T01:36:00.000+08:00

as much as it kills

i hope it gives me a new phase of life

2007-12-11T00:18:00.000+08:00

the rain has been pouring for the past week.
and i set my tears prolly will.
for tonight,

a day so bright and gloomy
just instantly turned dark in a matter of time
and just started to pour
and stop
and pour
and stop
and pour
non stop

my day just crashed
at the stroke of half past eleven
or was it
that the flame of life is re-kindled again

anger and past belly of unsettled
flushed to my head and numbed my thoughts
and set me walking off straight into the starless night
a few moments
as the driver drove me into the darkness
the tears fell for the first time that night

i never thought i will feel so helpless
so vunerable
so weak
but that is prolly the habitual dependancy
a few moments later
i felt i could conquer everything
another few moments later
my emotions crumbled again

thats now.

2007-11-29T11:42:00.001+08:00

i dud badly for my ER.

hais.
there goes my honours.
damit

2007-11-29T11:23:00.000+08:00

people!

my coms back!
2 cpu 1 monitor!
yea!

met the girls last night
was a crazy night of laughter.
all that talk.
and the occassional funny people around us!
wah!
that boy boy with his filet-o-fish, chicnuggets, mcflurry
ha!
and we somehow qi siao
and decided to head down to zouk
utter wrong mistake!
man
we were feeling so inferior
everyone decked to their best
and us in rags,
yikes,
maybe cos zouk is like schoool to us.
anyway wednesday nights are horrid.
other than the free drinks here and there,
which we duin manage to make it for
nothing rocks.
the crowd with the young girls
who are so ill mannered.
mei you li rang jing shen
and the guys who just qi dang qi siao with siao mei meis.
goodness!
my white skinnies turn black
my feet turn black
we get pushed and rolled around in the crowd
so at 3,
we just settled for eggprata and small talk.
and poof home.

2007-11-26T16:06:00.000+08:00

yo peeps.

been working day in day out.
and my monitor is spoilt back home.
so no net..
till i ifind a monitor.
any kind-ies will like to sponsor me one?
pretty-please...

yet again..
i keep gaining fats.
hai.
sadnesss.

im bored.

2007-11-07T00:17:00.000+08:00

i am so damm gian to go to bkk!

hai! i am so gian!

help!

2007-11-05T23:37:00.001+08:00

Market research paper this afternoon was a total flop.
i am so disappointed with myself.
upset at why i cant seem to remember the answers.

man.
i tried to keep a straight face.
hais.
but at a few moments,
i really was close to tears.
hai.
i dun wish to waste any further resources on my studies.

hai.

2007-11-03T01:24:00.000+08:00

i haven been unable to control my cravings.
man!
i just finished another packet of caramel corn.
dammit.

and i need to get to mugg again!
ultimately no mood.
i could have been at zouk at this very moment!

just wanna sleep.

lead me thru!

2007-11-02T00:40:00.000+08:00

oh! did i say caramel corn in coconut is pure love!

i can almost hear the bf (translated to english)
"wah! how do yu wan to slim down like tt! still eat all this kind of things!"

2007-11-02T00:29:00.000+08:00

er is over er is over!

woohooo.
er is finally over...
that means the coming of the last paper..!
wooohooo!
that means all the play, partying, shopping, tanning, chilling times are coming!
YEAH!

but this also means there will be more work commitments.
no more " i have got exams and i need to study" or " i need to do my project/assignment"
at least not till next year.
hai.
i must be hard working.!
work! work! work!
earn more. slim down more.
and be an airstewardess. (ok thats random)

then maybe i will have enough money for my
- shopping
- partying
- hair extension
- psp (slim)
- ke970gold (reconsidering)
- shopping
- bkk trip in jan
- kuchingtrip (if it does not clash with school)
- shopping
- partying
- shopping

ok ok! i know i have said shopping and partying more than once!
ha! but who can get enough of those?
who!

was thinking of restarting my dance classes again.
the bf has been complaining aloud that i am getting fatter and bigger
that i do not deny.
but who can stand their bf telling them this everytime they meet!
yikes.
i know i am not exactly the ideal size.
it will definitely be better if i can be so much slimmer.
but still intact with my assets *winks*.
hai.
but they are freaking going to cost a bomb.
sitting all day at work is going to earn me a big fat tummy.
like the one i already have NOW!

hai.

i have got to mugg off MR soon..
mugg till morn.
or else, i fear i really might just habe not enough time to study
with freaking work on sunday!
yikes!
can they just let me off this sunday?

2007-10-31T11:47:00.000+08:00

muggin at home makes me ultra fat!
cos i keep eating eating eating!
yucks
but i cant stop my mouth!

now i am hooked on pineappletarts.
man.
i absolutely love the crust.

how to eat pineapple tarts the-suet-way:
1 - pick up the tart with your left index finger and thumb.
2 - put the whole delicious thing into yur mouth.
3 - crumble tthe crust in mouth, seperating the pineapple from it
4 - tumble in the mouth : ENJOY.......... mmmmm....
5 - chew the pineapple slowly, savouring the sweetness and chewiness.
6 - grin stupidly - satisfied comsumer!

hee! yeap.
do it.
yu will love it.
thats why i cant wait for cny to come.
then i will have loads of pineapple tarts!
yea!

2007-10-31T10:26:00.000+08:00

man.
mugg mugg mugg
as if i have got no life
ha
that is what i did
till 4 in the morning
and still i am not done yet
my hands ache from all that writing
my back and butt ache from all that sitting
urgh.
look what er has done to us.
bleah.
and i still have got the roles in the triapartite and NTUC and SNEF to cover.
yikes.

the main problem is -
i dun think i can remember and recall all the points
this cant be happening again!
dammit.
ah. i just wanna scream out loud!

anyway..

happy halloween ghoulies!

2007-10-30T15:26:00.000+08:00

skiipeed work yester.
ha
life's love without work

but i skipped to mugg.
damm er.
yikes.
and i only manage to finish up 2 and 1/2 key topics.
damm.
i have to try to finish them up by today.
still stuck at internal external environ.
i swear if i dun take a break,
i would have tore up the entire sim file.
afterwhich, stomping and draining it with chilli sauce
then burning it.
wooo. poof in smoke.
bye er.

oops.
could i just burn up the notes & text, mix it up in water
and drink it?

hai.
will 5nov come quick?

i have been dreaming of postexams
carefree
shopping
partying
k-ing.
tanning.
wooo. i likeeee.
heeee.

i chant* 5nov!5nov!5nov!5nov!

2007-10-25T20:58:00.000+08:00

i dunno why,

but i am just craving

for a psp.

in yummywhite.

ooooh.

loves.

gizmodo

2007-10-25T18:55:00.000+08:00

damm
will the freaking exams pls be over!
school is fun
but better off without exams.

hai.
mugging the entire day off with p&m.
the worst has yet to come.
with ER and MR.
damm.
read read. memorise memorise.
urgh.

pls.
exams be over soon,
so the poor girl can go play in the sun again...

:(

2007-10-19T22:45:00.000+08:00

i was blogg jogging.
and i saw
hair extensions.
no prizes for whose blog.
but anyway,
it is damm chio lar!
really!
and according to the person,
it is damm cheap!

i wanna get hair extensions tooo!
and have luscious locks.
yum yum,
i love long hair!

2007-10-19T22:20:00.000+08:00

finally!

the cheque was on the table when i got home.
if not,
i will be nagging at finance again.
cant believe how inefficient they can get!
this means i will be able to cash out by tuesday.
just have to endure till monday.
urgh.

wasted.
so into vintage-used bags.
so much so that i went to dig mum's closet.
so sad!
the flower flower bucket bag spoil sometime ago
and she threw it away!
damm!
i was hoping to get my hands onto it!
it is damm pretty lar.
but anyways,
i saw the louis vuitton one.
ha.
like she will give it to me willingly
without starting on nags.
yikes.

saw this peep-hole jellies at bugis.
damm chio can!
i wanna get blue, yellow, green.
yeah.
wah. but damm.
the aunty was selling at 26.90.
when they are seeling for 9buckaroos online!
thank god i din buy.

i want more clothes
bags
shoes
and a holiday trip to bangkok.!
from next month onwards,
i will be able to get my high high pay.
yeah!
but i will have to save save save!
ha.
more clothes.

sitting all day does no good to me.
i am getting fatter and fatter.
damm.
cant i just be slim?
hai.

lazy to continue studying.

2007-10-16T21:08:00.002+08:00

farking hell!

haven process my check.
getting approval from freaking officers! how long alr!
bloody hell
then wad.
i eat grass?

URGH!

2007-10-15T22:11:00.000+08:00

zouk last fri was..
unforgetable.
prolly cause there were not much things i rmb other than the second half of the night.
after 3 am.
other than that,
....
bleah.
thank god i made it out in a piece.
damm.
maybe cause i haven been partying for damm long alr.
so we must do it more often?
ha.

went lonely shopping today at ps
last minute decision. after work today.
work is so tiring.
and that bastard is moving away!
woohooo!
anyway.
spoils to pursie today - $29.90.
with 5 items ok.
1 scarf from daiso
2 shorts (that i hell wanted to get since a long long time) + one glossie
1 ring from girls.
wooooo!
i am so happy.
duh.not.
i haven gotten my freaking pay yet!~

i so love cotton on!
yu guys should embrace that shop!
almost all the apparels and accessories are to die for.
the cheap tops and btms
big big sunnies
50% off belts and bags!
wooo.
i may go back to get that $5 pink belt if i get my pay sooon enough!
wooooooo.

happy happy shopping.
plus i have not touched my mab! :(

2007-10-11T22:58:00.000+08:00

ultimate dulan-ness.

my pay cocked up again.
so tired from work.
hai.
pls. friday...
come quick.

urgh.

2007-10-08T08:42:00.000+08:00

i woke up today not knowing what day it is
after struggling to get my mind in place to sort it out
i realise it is only monday. damm.
i so want my off tml.
that is if she is ok with it.
the manager had not even told me about my schedule.
and it is not very nice to go peeping around her office right.
and the other manager was so busy yesterday
i din really dare to ask her.
so hopefully, they do not get shocked at my appearance today.

have been so drained at work everyday
whether it had been busy or not
my eyes start shutting at 10.
and 10 minutes later
i will fall into lala land.
like last night and last last night.
man.
i bet i was speaking gibberish to him last night when he called.
and missed his secong call.
hai.
i din even rmber hearing the second call.
maybe cause i had placed my hp on the shelf.

hai another day of work.
jiayou me on!

2007-10-06T20:47:00.000+08:00

had been busy celebrating his birthday last week.

after getting thru eith dreadful monday at work,
tuesday was much love.
it has been a damm long time when i do not have to report to work straight after school
woohoooo.
day of surprises.
one after another.
ha! fun. *winks
keeping him in suspense.
hoped he had loved them all.

wednesday was zoo day.
woke up at 7 and tot we prolly wun be able to make it.
the sky was dark and cloudy
so i went back to bed with a heavy heart.
woke up 2 hours later!
lo and behold!
the sun is out and shining again!
yeah!
so it was off to the zoo!
definitely fun.
and we covered the entire premise!
monkeys, baboons. snakes.....
woooo.
pictures will be up as and when i can up them.
the cam's with him.

hai.
trying very hard to stay in at work.
fighting and struggling.
i will be strong!
after all,
i am a fighter.
dun make me breathe fire!

2007-10-02T00:17:00.000+08:00

i am so badly burnt from sunday's intensive 6 hours tanning+swimming.

but yet,

i am not very happy with the subsided tan today.

hmmph.

prolly more to come this thurs and sunday.

yikes.

my parents are prolly goint to nag the skincancer thingy in to my ear again,.

its my boy's bday today!

cant wait to shower him with my surprises.

woohooo.

anyway.. when can we do this again?

2007-09-29T01:43:00.001+08:00

i probably am just losing my mind.

i dunnoowhat i want.

better go jog my mind off later before school.

2007-09-29T01:25:00.000+08:00

desolation.

there seems to be so much negative energy within me.

how can i expel them all.

2007-09-28T00:32:00.000+08:00

life hasnt been exactly a bed of roses of recent days.
things have been down.
and i have gone through better days.
well.
rather than sulking,
i ought to try to be positive about it all.
afterall, it might have been self-incurred.

so after the major fight over a damm wallet,
i got him a phone for his bdae.
ku970.
with the help of my dad.
rockadilly gf rights.
ssh.
he still does not know yet.
and it is so difficult trying to keep it to myself.
and the other surprise.
ha!

hai.
looking forward to days of fun
to come.

i am smelling my bro's bad smelling shoes. oorh~.

2007-09-20T23:29:00.000+08:00

the past weeks have been so packed and taxing for me
i could have almost died.
to think that i thought i will have plenty of time in between mab and p&m test

well
so there had been tests going on recently
and
it was also my birthday last monday 17th Sept.
thanks to all the well-wishers...

anyways, it was a day wellspent as i had intended to
and would wish for every year
or even better - every week
just lying there
baking in the sun is really therapeutic
seriously.
as the heat intenses
it is as if all the troubles and worries
are being zapped and lifted out through all the tiny pores.
and after enlarging all the pores
heading down to soak in the crystal green water
with the waves hitting onto you
oooooo...
that's what i call life.

ha.
birthday was love.

2007-09-20T23:03:00.000+08:00

heart wrenching.

the moment i caught a glimpse of her photo on the stand
the memories i had tried so hard to recall the past few days
just filled me in.
how she nagged at our class
how she suaned us
how she tried to use her ways to get us to feel confident in attempting all that mathematical questions
how she was so ever beautiful
definitely one of the pretty ladies in cedar
how she finally rubbed off our class
how she turned out to be one of our favourite teachers

i sat in silence
as her closed ones shared their memories.
similar to them, i once share a relationship with her i can nv forget
how my heart felt heavier as seconds pass.
then it was time.
i stood
and joined the neat file passing her
she lay ever so peacefully
but yet i could feel my eyes fill with tears
she was there, she is there
but yet she will no longer be there.

May her family be well and strong, her husband, her daughter and her newborn
may her newborn live the life that she will live
with such zest and inspiration.

she is and forever will be remembered.
by one of her lousy maths students of cedar02.

Mrs Serene Ng

2007-09-07T16:28:00.000+08:00

dammit.

there is this bump on my left eye.
i think i grow the bak jiam.
shit man!
pls let is subside by tml.
or else i can stare with full power.

i having been thinking that mr is till chapter 6.
but i just realise that it is till 9.
dammit.
thats why.
i am intending to study till the library closes.
skipping dance.
boohooo!
for my future.
and dreams of flying the skies? *winks to seng*
ha!.

2007-09-07T10:43:00.000+08:00

school's killing me.